The Pain of Love

Love encompasses all pain and suffering.

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We never love without pain for nothing is forever. Love lost is painful and love will be forever lost. To love is to boldly go beyond the threshold of what we knowingly control because to love is to become vulnerable to our own decisions as well as the decisions of others.

Love always brings pain and suffering for someone because nothing lasts forever; time does not stand still and that which lives, dies and rots into the earth only to become a memory of a happier time.

Not long after my oldest son died, 6 months I think, My #2 son was born. A friend of mine seen me holding him and asked me,”Seva, how can you love that little boy so completely after the pain you have suffered from the loss of your eldest son?”

I just told him that I want this boy to feel alive as I have felt alive, even in the pain, I felt alive. To love is to experience life in all its splendor. To feel the pain is to know what love has given us and know that it was worth it even with the pain of sorrow & grief.

Inward Bound

~~The road within is open to You~~

What is it that draws us inward? Even if we don’t go there we are drawn to that center of our Being that is quiet, calm, relaxed. There is a threshold of hope within us all. That threshold draws us near and invites us to cross over. To cross over to that side of us that is undiscovered. That part within us that is All of us; yet none of us. The part which whispers to us in that still small voice.
Within my self is a voice that whispers to me, “I must not be alone.”
As much as I enjoy being alone I was not meant to be alone always. I must share that which I Am with others. I must experience that which I Am through association with others. Without others I am incomplete; I am simply a part of a Whole.
Yoga brings me intimately in touch with the body and helps to cultivate a relationship or union with the body; one where by I am able to realize, to a greater degree, the function of it. The role it plays and how I am able to play a more important and fulfilling role because I was gifted with a body.
As I bring meditation together with yoga a fascinating thing happens~~ it is like completing a open circuit between the mind and body; they both suddenly begin to function completely. This is how we are able to realize the relationship others play in our lives; the integral role that is fulfilled at last by Unity of Being. For this I Am grateful to You!

When Meditation Stops

What happens when a meditation practitioner stops meditating?
Everything seems pretty normal for a time then it hits. One becomes angry for the most trivial reasons. Those around us that we love the most become the targets of angst. If we are still practicing yoga it may take some time before this happens but eventually~~~it will happen~~~and we becomeĀ  alienated from our fellows. We become victims of our own Selves; we no longer relate to others in a way that encourages compassion. We become loners in a world of Others; instead of seeing the Oneness that we know that we are.
Maybe this is where the anger comes from~~ maybe we know that this is not reality and our intuition is trying to give a signal that, “Hey Bonehead! You need to get with the program here!”
Yoga helps prolong the inevitable because, of course, yoga is a form of meditation that uses the motion of the body as a tool to center oneself as well. But yoga is not enough for one that has had an extended meditation practice in the past.
Another aspect of the anger is the knowing that nags at one that has stopped meditation. The knowing that continually rears its head within the recesses of the mind and tells one that this is not the Way!!
Eventually I have always come back to meditation because of the reaction I get from my mind. I cannot go back to to where I was before meditation. Meditating has brought me a peace of mind that has come from nothing else I know of.
I have quit both meditating and yoga at different times and always come back to it. At some point, I suppose, I will become dedicated enough to start and not stop. I would like to use my children, my spouse or my job for excuses for stopping but the reality is that I simply am not dedicated enough at this juncture in my life. Maybe this time, huh?

In the Beginning

This is my first blog post on this site. I would like to welcome all of you to a place to call home. Make yourselves comfortable and rest. There is much to talk about . . .much to come . . . much to Be . . .
Meditation is the rule by which all rules fall flat. It is the rule without rules . . .the rule which allows one to open up to that which I Am. . . and I Am That!!